Goodbye Shilla

Summary:

My farewell message.

Goodbye Shilla

Bizarro 14 Jan 2011 18:55

I'm quitting Shilla, so this is my goodbye.

My character will be deleted as soon as I write this and I would not expect
to see Bp ever again. I've decided to distance myself away from this game.

It's just time for me personally, and professionally. If you can even put
profession into Shilla and have that make sense, I don't even know.

I've done all I wanted to do with this game. I've done all I wanted in the
previous version as well. The friends I've met over the years, a few I
can call best friends. My girlfriend Mina, who I met here, I'll always love.

I'm sad for what this version has become. I wish for everyone's sake it was
better and that more people behind the scenes cared. I to an extent regret
not taking the designer role but I have no true regrets because if my good
friends Nappavas and Blink were not good enough for them, then no player
is good enough to satisfy whatever they want to do with this.

I'll always have a bad taste to how this came out, because for the lack
of direction, progress, and accountability displayed, this game will
always feel like to me like a ruining of Shilla's good name.

Maybe I should have never came back and tried this version,
but if I hadn't, my mind likely would have eventually caved in anyway.
But at least now I know in my heart, that I can move on.

If Warlock's version version of Shilla ever gets off the ground, I may try
that just for old memories. Otherwise, my time here is over. Thank you
for all the memories, and fun you've given me over the years.

Goodbye Shilla.

Farewell,
Kyle

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Re: Goodbye Shilla

Bizarro 22 Jan 2011 17:46

After AA wrote his post, I figured I'd add a few things of interest here that have happened resently..

One, I'm currently single. Two, all this going down in Shilla.

One doesn't really lead to two very well, but I will say this:

Last year or so, things haven't been all that great for me personally. I'm not sure where to put my finger on it, but they just haven't. I wanted 2010 to be over with and done and I was going to go into 2011 with a new perspective on things. Well, 2011 hasn't started off that well. But I've had almost a week to think about things and I think a separation is a good thing. It's kinda kicked me in the ass a little bit on life. I also feel like we can get back together, but it'll take some time and effort on my end, and the desire on hers to want it.

I think I've leaned on Mina for a while and I think she got tired of that. She's been finding new friends and hanging out with them, and it's an adjustment period… I do understand.

I've found friends that I've not really kept in close touch with, and I think for me, I need to get out and socialize and see what everything is about. Just explore the outside world and not be afraid of what's out there.

As it relates to Shilla:

While the buildup does sound interesting, I'm going to try and hold my promise to myself and not come back. Now, with this, I'd say never is never, but realistically, my Shilla days are done. I feel like to come back, I'd need to be the one of the best at what I do, and being a casual player wouldn't cut it.

I hope all is the best, and good luck to those playing.

Kyle

Re: Goodbye Shilla

Bizarro 01 Feb 2011 19:32

So I caved… kinda.

I created myself on there, just kinda to keep in touch. I'd like to someday play again, but that is of very low importance to me at this time.

I'm still trying to figure out the puzzle of what they call life. I'm finding pieces, getting answers, asking questions, and most importantly, learning.

Best of luck to everyone,
Kyle